I confess that I have murdered another day; and the shadow of our earth on our moon, confirms that it is as dead as all the others, that went before it. I now drive a stake through the heart of this night; bidding it to be still, but this restless time just keeps moving on. I know that time my closest companion; is a fickle friend, and will eventually desert me and continue his inexorable march towards eternity, to the space I cannot go. I breathe in this moment; and he is with me and we are one again, and all my efforts will not still this beating heart. No matter how much of it I kill, it just keeps coming back for more.
I seek solace in sleep; but he is restless and brings back dreams of his dead companion days, and I breathe the same smells, and experience the same delights, that I tried to capture and make my own. I reach out to grasp it all to myself; as this is my life I say, but he just slips through my fingers and I know I hold nothing, and will have nothing in the end also. You are faithless; I cry out in despair, and push back at him and he smiles and whispers, “have faith, for I am all that you will ever have.” I no longer want him near me; and like a jilted lover, I sulk and moan. He giggles and teases me; bringing back even more dear memories of this life, that I know is mine. I tell it to be gone; as all I want is that rosy future, where all I desire will be mine to enjoy, and not this past that reeks of decay and leaves a sour taste in my mouth of death. I thrash about in the hot night without solace from my beloved companion; and sleep comes to me at last, a poor bargain compared to what I seek. In the meantime our universe continues its expansion into another billion miles of space, and this time I love more than myself, continues his eternal dance of joy.